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Damn My Dyscalculia

Woke my daughter up at 6:30 this morning to go back to school today, from her Christmas break. I’m running the morning school routine like a boss; in the kitchen making coffee, breakfast, packing snacks, water, and school lunches. Reminding my daughter of her time, and counting down the minutes until we go upstairs to get dressed. I begin to hear tiny footsteps walking down the stairs and I know it’s our three year old, who will need her “mulk” (milk) and fruit bar. I get that handled, turn on the movie “How To Train Your Dragon” and the school routine is in full effect. Then, in walks the man of the house. He says, “the calendar says she goes back to school tomorrow”. I snap back, “it’s wrong”. Then I find my own private corner in the house (out of embarrassment), check my calendar on my phone secretly; and what do ya know?!!! She goes back to school tomorrow!!!! Then reality hits me. I just woke my 5 and 3 year old up at 6:30 in the morning for no friggin reason. With my dyscalculia I can’t memorize dates at all….EVER, and that’s just the half of it! The upside to this situation is her uniforms are washed and her snack, water, and lunch are packed and ready to go for tomorrow. The downside is I didn’t look at my calendar like I need to do EVERY Sunday night to prepare for the week, so I woke up my little blue eyes from their sweet slumber. Having dyscalculia hasn’t been easy, but it’s manageable when I can remember to manage it…😣. In 2014 I’m definitely going to make my management of my dyscalculia a priority. It’s hard for me to want to face my dyscalculia because it has caused me so much anguish, tears, and embarrassment. It’s tough because it’s not a disability that can be seen. People just think I’m not on-top of my game, or I’m not trying, or I’m just a few colors short of the crayon box; but now I’m going to gain my control and confidence back. I’m going to face and embrace my dyscalculia; and own it completely. I’m going to learn to love this little disability; and learn how this thorn in my side can improve my life. There’s always a silver lining….sometimes you just have to flip the script.

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